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Before the televisions turn on tomorrow night,

5/18/2019

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Remember that it is not your story. You've just been allowed to watch the journey happen.
That thousands of artists collaborated in ways that changed the face of television.
But most of all, remember that these are the state of our fairy tales.
If the Games of Thrones has been anything, it has torn away the veil we always watched our fairy tales through.
Ned Stark was never going to solve the mystery and win the day without drawing a sword; putting a reluctant Stannis on the Throne, Jamie on the wall, Cersei in a convent and Littlefinger hanged.
The Realm wasn't going to answer the call of the true threat. The banners of every house weren't going to take the field united to face the White Walkers.
Drogo and Dany were never going to lead the Dothraki horde across the sea to aid them.
Sansa was never going to be saved at the last minute by Loras on a white charger, dispatching Ramsay with ease.
We've already seen those fairy tales. And they are not of our time.
Our time is one in where no institution goes without its rot and its sins. Not government, nor military, nor academia, nor church, nor philosophy, nor tribe.
Our time is one in which redemption is seemingly impossible. Hiding or attacking becoming the only options.
Our time is one where honor before reason gets you attacked and destroyed at the hands of those who have neither. Not that they're particularly safe themselves.
Our time is one where our allies, our enemies, and most of all ourselves are all so very much human. In all our beauty and hideousness, in all our compassion and cruelty, we are human still. And even saving ourselves from inhumanity might not be enough to save that.
And that is what the Game of Thrones showed us. How human the players are.
I don't know how the story ends. I just know how our fairy tales go now.
And I know what I want the next ones to be.
I want to see stories where redemption is possible.
Where sins can be atoned for.
Where honor has a place again.
Call me an aging barbarian, but I think civilization has grown too swift to throw out what it believes to be trash, but may well be treasure.
May we rescue them someday.
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*sigh*

5/8/2019

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I hate it when the essayist in my brain keeps me from getting anything else done. But since the damn thing won't stop, I might as well get this out of my system.
Yesterday, the governor of my home state of GA signed the latest heartbeat bill. In doing so, he committed the state to a long and drawn-out lawsuit conga which it will eventually lose, all for the sake of fulfilling a campaign promise to a well-meaning but ultimately clueless constituency. As political blunders go, it's not quite on the level of say, Obama's pullout from Iraq, but once you scale it down to the state level, it's still embarrassing.
(There's a lot of newcomers to the page. Right around now, some of the right-wing newcomers are slackjawed at discovering an abundantly hetero gun-toting carnivore like me isn't falling into step with them. The left-wing newcomers are rolling their eyes at the prospect of yet another inbound cishet white dude's opinion. Oh well. You buys your ticket, you takes your ride.)
I've already mentioned how it's both blatantly unconstitutional and that I don't ever expect it to actually make it to enforcement. It's both one of the last cards the pro-life camp has to play and I personally think they've jumped the gun on finding a supposedly sympathetic SCOTUS. Personal prediction is that whichever one winds up in front of SCOTUS first gets shot down 5-4, with Kavanaugh taking the swing and hammering Roe v. Wade as the law of the land deeper.
(Not that that's going to convince the Handmaiden cosplayers to go find something useful to do anytime soon. As misogynist dystopias go, you're more likely to wind up on Gor than in Gilead anytime soon. But that may just be my intense distaste for that dumpster fire of an excuse for literature.)
But there's more that's been rolling around in my head.
The first is the concept of life and death. Western civilization has slowly insulated itself from death over the last century or so. We no longer see it as a part of life that happens to everyone, but a crisis, to be handled by specialists. This means a lot of people who know in the abstract that life and death both happen, but have no training or thought put into the process themselves.
Death isn't a major part of my profession any longer. But It came up often enough to establish a difference between sanctity and sacrosanct.
Put on a t-shirt; just because life is precious and because life matters doesn't mean that taking said life is not an option if circumstances dictate.
And in no case does having the well-meaning but painfully ignorant inserting their opinions into the mix productive or even helpful.
It's true when a teenage boy spends the last minutes of his life trying to beat a man to death by bashing his skull into the pavement, only for his victim to draw a pistol and put a bullet in the teenager's chest.
It's true on the battlefield against Taliban or AQI or Daesh or whatever current incarnation is what's facing at the time.
And it's true when a woman and her doctor have a decision to make.
Just because a life is precious doesn't mean taking it is not an option.
Put a pin in that, we'll get back to it.
The second is that humanity has some interesting design flaws, as a species. We went from quadrapedal to bipedal, then enlarged the cranium without enlarging the pelvis while we did it, which is a bone stupid idea if easy reproduction is what you were going for.
As is, in the absence of available first world medicine, childbirth is the undisputed champion killer of women worldwide. If you can afford modern medicine, breast cancer and heart disease pull ahead of the pack. Everywhere else is childbirth.
Nobody knows what the first drug was. They predate history. My guess is some form of anaglesic or sedative was the first. But an abortofascient had to be in the top ten.
Quality obviously varied wildly. But humanity's pretty quick to figure out what's needed.
In other words, I don't care how often your great-granny thumped a bible. I guarantee you she had a recipe in her oh shit kit that your great-granddaddy knew nothing about, but probably saved the life of at least one woman in her life.
Third thing before I go into the history is that human beings, like computer programs, have a great deal of "legacy code" embedded in both our instincts and our cultures.
And our cultures are changing much faster than our legacy code can be rewritten in a lot of ways.
If you look back into history far enough and find something that baffles the fuck out of you (the book of Leviticus is a good starter), trying to find out why it made sense is an intellectual exercise that will tell you a lot about conditions on the moment. Makes a nice empathy exercise on knowing where your opponents are coming from, while you're at it.
So, what brought about the right to life movement as we know it?
Near as I can tell, it's a one-two punch.
The first hit was the medical field trying to get itself taken seriously. The AMA was formed in the early 1800's, not long after university-trained physicians stopped sneering at surgeons. They considered medicine a profession for highly skilled gentlemen, and looked down their noses at the barber-butchers of their battlefield-born cousins.
To be fair, there was a lot of quackery flying around the westward expansion. Unfortunately, in cleaning out the snake-oil salesman, the AMA decided that a fancy college education was the gold standard in practicing medicine. A noble idea, if self-serving, but it de facto cleared out all of the apprenticeship-trained surgeons and midwives which were about all that was available to the poor (especially in rural areas). It wasn't rich sons who were losing limbs in logging accidents.
The second hit came as part of backlash to the women's rights movement. It took most of the 1800's for abortion prohibition to be the law of the land in almost every state. But it really started hitting home when the medical journals started to notice that it wasn't just unmarried girls on last resorts. The thought of any woman being able to do such a thing just for the wanting? Throw it on the pile of sins.
Adding insult to injury, the Comstock laws meant that any useful information on the subject got you an obscenity charge if you sent it through the mail.
Remember when I mentioned legacy code?
To one extent or another, we're all wired to ensure that our tribe survives.
And in a few generations, we've built a world where we've convinced ourselves that we don't need tribes.
We're all descended from young men who knew they were expendable and young women who knew they needed reliable.
We're in the middle of a shift in that state that's unprecedented.
Understandably terrifying, especially for those who worked so hard to keep the bit of power they have.
And it manifests in admonishing strangers for not acting like "good" members of our tribe would be.
But while we admonish, we don't care for them like members of our own tribe, because they're not.
It's easy to tell someone else to face consequences when you're sure you'll never face your own.
The "should have kept your legs together" crowd is just as ignorant and small-minded as the "why couldn't you just shoot him in the leg?" fools.
"All life is precious!"
And if you gave a substantial fuck after that life took a breath, I might believe that. But no. I've met a grand total of maybe four people who truly do.
For everyone else? Shame and control should be for the empire, but responsibility should be taken by their tribe.
Yeah, fuck that.
"Adoption is an option."
Fuck you. I say that as someone who all too recently found out he will never be a parent, and who no adoption agency will touch until I somehow find the ability to start throwing money at one. Put a pound of ground pumice in your lube and go fuck yourself.
"Actions have consequences"
If we hunted down deadbeat dads and indentured them into performing (or at least compensating for their lack of) duties, then I might believe this. But we don't and I don't.
Fact is, it's just another facet of the same old traps. Convince a girl she's only worth a damn if she's sexy, then bring on the shame if she gets it in her head to actually do something she wants to with it.
I mercilessly mock legislators who push gun control and think a rifle's sling swivel is for mounting a grenade launcher.
By that token, I will mercilessly mock people who try to put women in their place when they couldn't find a clitoris if I dangled a GPS beacon from one.
Take care of yourselves out there.
And try not to shove your nose into someone else's business while you're at it.
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Two kinds of worthy (Endgame spoilers)

5/7/2019

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Hawkeye is the PTSD sufferer that everyone thinks of.
The kind people fear.
The kind that's complete bullshit in real life.
The bullshit fear that affects everyone from dates to potential employers.
He has just enough of a moral compass to butcher career criminals instead of a crowd of random bystanders, but otherwise he's a classic case of snap and go on a rampage. Clint Barton just turned to the pile of dust that used to be the Punisher and said "hold my beer." Because there's nothing left in life for him except butchering scumbags until one gets lucky enough to take him down.
Thor, on the other hand, is PTSD as I've watched it happen to too many people. He just slowly, quietly gives up. If the rat hadn't turned on the quantum tunnel, Thor would have kept stumbling on until he found a quiet way to die. Stumbling outside in the snow to take a piss and then freezing, heart attack with a game controller in hand, a cocktail of painkillers that ran out of pain to kill and just turned on him, slip in the bathroom and fall on Stormbringer's blade, the method doesn't matter. What matters is that he goes off to die alone and everyone in his life lets him.
What saves both of them is a combination of people who give a shit about them and being able to do something tangible.
Clint isn't fixed just because he gets to hug it out with his hetero lifemate after too damn long. His new purpose comes in trying to save lives instead of just trying to end more. Which is part of what makes his fight with Nat so heartbreaking. They're not only fighting with each other, they're listening to the part of themselves that's got them convinced there's so much blood on their hands that the world is better off with them dead.
And Thor is probably the most shit on character in the entire MCU. Mom murdered. Dad dead. Best friends murdered by his sister. Homeworld obliterated. Half of the surviving Asgardians butchered at Thanos' hands (which is like hunting down half of surviving alderannians after firing off the Death Star).
And on top of all that, Thor was the absolute last hope before the snap. And he blew it. His fuckup cost 3 Billion people their lives.
And yeah, he pushes everyone away and everyone has their own trauma to deal with (personal headcannon: that scene of Nat at the range in the trailers but not in the movie was her Netflix and chill for five years. Just off camera was a case of targets and a pallet of ammo, just to supply Nat's habits for a week or two.)
But once there's a tangible chance to save the world again? They go out of their way to bring him on board.
Yeah, rocket's an asshole. Yeah, Rhodey's a war buddy flavored asshole. And Frigga made that salad crack out of nothing but love.
(Frigga fucking rocks. Haven't seen Captain Marvel, I could care less about Deus Ex Space Lady at the moment. The MCU did not deserve the badass that is Frigga.)
So yeah, not a fan of using Clint to fulfill an ugly fucking bullshit stereotype.
But Thor's journey? Proving that a hero can fail spectacularly, fall out of everyone's good graces, but still trust in loved ones, cry without shame, and still wind up worthy in spite of it all?
That was worth telling.
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