Because of the nature of my work and areas of expertise, I get a LOT of indirect hatred with every high publicized mass shooting.
A lot of it comes from people I at least respect, if not love. And a lot of it is really emotionally driven.
I get that. I try not to take it personally.
But that ain't easy. At all.
Ever looked at a fondly remembered old lover's feed and thought, "holy shit. If I'm that much of a godsdamn monster, how did you ever contain your revulsion long enough to repeatedly and enthusiastically ask me to put my dick in you?"
I've done that. More than once. Over this very issue. It hurts. In fact, it fucking sucks.
So if my answers get curt, well, sorry if you end up on the receiving end of that.
But realize that I burned through a lot of spoons to even get to looking you in the eye and answering your questions. Places where some of my contemporaries have given up trying to go.
But I'm still here.